Have you experienced a situation wherein someone close to your heart neglects you? Its just so disappointing… and in fact, I’ve been waiting for the time that we could talk and reconcile things up. My heart was even beating very fast when I saw that person… I don’t know why. But then, it was I expected anyway… I just realized that there is really something in me that wants to clarify with that person… But my opportunity was gone… I was about to make the first move but I guess that someone was avoiding me… And it just hit me. This is reality. That someone was not the same person I’ve known before… The person I’ve known before is not coming back… How stupid of me think that the person is still the same after the many things have happened… Anyway, I just hope that that someone will continue to be good… And I really do hope that that someone still considers me as a friend… To the people reading this, I know you’re confused of the person I’m referring to… I know if that person read this, that person will eventually know… So much of the mystery… Well, that’s all I can say for now…

It was a Friday afternoon… I thought I just can’t stand it… My next class was Literature 1 and I was waiting for 4pm to come, together with a couple of my friends… Teasing each other can’t be avoided, right? It’s always part of a relationship… Anyway, I thought that yeah, these are just teasing… they’re not real… but, everytime they tease me, I got offended… it hurt so much… Well, I just pretended I was okay… Then the time came when I can’t take it anymore… It’s too much… It was maybe 15 minutes before 4pm… And I started to act weird… I only talked to some of my friends in the Lit period… They tried to call me but I just ignored them… I don’t want to talk to them anymore… I had this feeling that if I talk, I will burst to tears… Our last class ended and I want to go home… They tried to tease again so I walked away and tried to go home by myself… But then, one of my friends approached me and ask me to go home with her. I declined at first but she insisted. Anyway, she was the one who understood everything… She wanted to talk about it but then, my tears started to fall… I can’t talk about it… I said it’s just fine… My other friend went with us and I didn’t even tried to talk to her… And then I arrived home, thinking and thinking of the things that happened to me… I talked to my sister and as expected, she really understood me… I was contemplating the friendship I have with my college friends… Did I choose the right friends?  Why do they have to tease me whenever I want to go to class early? Why do they have to tease me with our teacher? Why do they have to describe me as "brutal"? Why everytime we sit, nobody wants to sit beside me for I was "brutal"? Why do they have to tease me with my expressions? I just can’t take it anymore… I’m really pissed off… To those who don’t know me, I don’t like to hide grudges… I want everything to be okay especially with my friends… My priorities are my studies that’s why I do my best in my subjects and coming to class early is a good example… I don’t want to waste the money my family paid for my tuition… I really hate people who ask too much favors… Anyway, to those who read this, I hope you’ll understand my situation… To my friends, I hope everything will be fine… Hope you’ll now see who I really am… That I can be very sensitive under uncontrollable circumstances… But I know God will guide me always and there’s always a reason for everything… Maybe this is just a test… That’s all I can say… Hope you can accept me for who I am…

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Yesterday evening, my friend Gib-Gib(a highschool classmate) celebrated her 18th birthday… I should have enjoyed the night… Well, at first, I was happy but suddenly, I received a text message from Lovely, a college classmste, saying that my clearance has not been completed because I lack a lab report in my Physics Laboratory subject… I’m 100% sure that I passed all the lab reports and I wouldn’t dare to miss one… Well, after I received that message, I wasn’t in the mood of the party anymore… I wanted to go home… I hated our prof… I can’t think of any reason why any of my papers will be lost… I don’t know… I thought my Physics will have a grade of INC… I cannot take it… I went home early from the party and my parents was shocked to see me went home on that time… They asked me if there was no disco or something but I just said that I just want to go home… So, a while ago, I went to school to check my clearance and it was not really complete together with some of my friends’… We let our clearance be signed again by our Physics instructor and he just signed it immediately without questions… Was that all??? I thought there was something wrong with my lab reports??? But then, we didn’t ask questions anymore. We completed our clearance and got our classcards and the print out of our grades this day… Then, I saw that My Physics lab was not INC but something really big. It’s not possible that I lack a lab report with that grade…Thank God everything was okay… Now, I was really curious why at first our clearance was not completed… Well, I hope my question will be answered soon…^_^